Im Tired...

i knew what was going to happen but i didn't know it would become this hard. divorce for a 17 year old you think would be easy seeing as its easier for them to understand but no not really.my 13 year old bother also has got to go through this divorce with our parents also but is taking a different view of things...


seeing as he is a boy he is always with his father and sees MOM as the bad guy because that is what DAD makes her out to be... with all of the things he has to say about her. 

but on the other hand some of it is true. THEN you have MOM talking about DAD and its not very nice saying things that really piss me off. but like i said its not like shes lying. so both ends are saying the truth but then again the truth can sting.

and there is also a point where my DAD should keep his mouth shut. so because he cant do that my mother, my brother and i are no longer welcome at my grandmas house...not even for Christmas.

then you have the money issues and child support.
daddy doesn't want to pay for SHIT and lies mostly about having money because he doesn't like to give it to her, and mom is working and doing everything she can to pay the rent, bills and get food. we are living off of food stamps for now. but shes only working at Target and she gets paid very little every two weeks. :/ its not that easy. 

oh but its not even the best part, i just LOOOVVEE when they decide to fight and make a scene outside and start to yell. and it just makes my night when the COPS are threatened to be called. i love it. this could all be avoided if they acted like adults




i don't like to cry but its all i have done lately..i don't know what to do anymore. i just want things back to the way they used to be.