I DID realize what was going on, i didnt realize you would take it this far. i DID realize you were having fun, but i didnt realize that by fun you ment hurting your loved ones.so now i know, i know what to expect now, i know that things will never be the same again, i know that i will have to make choices i dont want to, and i know that im going to watch my family fall apart piece by little piece.
we used to be strong and independent! you used to say nothing will ever happen but now all i see and feel is sadnesss and hatred....all i hear is yelling and crying and all see is fighting...
i feel better isolated in my room not interacting with the world because i know that what i will be told and what i will see will only make things worse not better.
my dreams are finally better than reality..but its funny that everyone says that, and its also funny how i used to say the total opposite. but now i guess im like everyone else, saying what other people say. our family is just another example of whatFAMILIES arent supposed to be. now a days familys never stay together. I love You means nothing,and a ring is just..well a ring.
so i guess i have to get used to this new life...
